A very sad fact dawned on me.
In the past, I haven’t been very nice to my body; this wonderful and beautiful vehicle that quite simply allows me to enjoy my life.
In the past, I have said and thought terrible things about it and to it. I have abused it by overeating/drinking, sometimes binging and so, so many times pushing it when it simply needed to rest. I have ignored it when it has tried to tell me that it doesn’t like something. I have made it my emotional punching bag. I have failed to accept it for what it is and instead spent way too much time comparing it to others and wishing it were different.
When I think about how I have treated my body in the past, it truly makes me sad. If my body were a person, that person would have long since left my life…tired of the abuse, negativity and lack of appreciation.
As I write this, I am reminded of a quote I have seen before that has quite literally brought me to tears. I will share it with you below.
Perhaps what I want most out of life is to have a beautiful, trusting relationship with my body and a beautiful, trusting relationship with food.
I want to find balance between eating to simply fuel my body and eating for pleasure. I want to exercise this body because I know it loves to move and not because I have a trip coming up, a dress to fit into, or someone to look good for. I want to find a healthy weight for it that allows it to easily take me through life, fuelling it with good healthy food. I want to learn to listen to it, nurture it, to love it. It’s the only one I have.